I sit in a room filled with nearly 400 college students. Friend’s. Roommates. Team mates. Sorority sister’s. Fraternity brother’s. Daughter’s. Fiancé’s. Future doctor’s and engineer’s. Young people searching to fill a void with the desires of this world, desires that can easily consume and captivate. Captivate until the brink of suffocation, suffocation that I felt three years ago. I was the college student sitting in that room, a room that would change my life.
You see, although a different room, I gave my life to the Lord God, Savior, Jesus Christ on this very weekend three year’s ago. Meaning I chose to follow God, live differently and no longer run away. Three year’s filled with much sanctification, redemption, deep love and a heart and life forever changed. A life with purpose and a void filled with the ultimate truth. The truth that has set me free from the guilt and shame of my past and the darkness that captivated me so abundantly.
To some I am “different”. The truth is, I am different. I choose to live life differently. Differently because I am called too; called to serve a God who gave his son, Jesus Christ, to die on a cross for me so that I could have life. Life free of the guilt and shame, the guilt and shame that Jesus Christ bore, as he was whipped, spit on, beaten, mocked and then untimely nailed to a cross. Nailed to a cross for me, for you. Not so that I can live my life how I want, freely choosing to do what is easy or most convenient, but rather live a life that brings most glory to Him. He is worth it and I praise Him for his faithfulness despite my faithlessness. Through His death, He intends to write a new story in sin’s place, replacing what was once broken, wicked, and dead with love, faithfulness, grace and life.
For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit. 1 Peter 3:18
Grace is a rich word with many layers of meaning in the New Testament. “The good news of the gospel doesn’t stop with pardon. We treat grace like it’s God’s big eraser for our every wrong or mistake. But God does not only mean to rub the page clean. No, he intends to write a new story in sin’s place, replacing what was once broken, wicked, and dead with love, faithfulness, and life.” (Marshall Segal” executive assistant to John Piper)
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God– 9 not by works, so that no one can boast. Ephesians 2:8-9
While the Lord captivated me that weekend at Doubling Gap, I couldn’t help but pray for the same for those whom I was surrounded by. That they would fall as deeply in love with Jesus as I have and more, and embrace his grace and love. As I saw many taking endless notes, giggling, smiling and even a few yawning, my heart was filled with joy; joy that they were simply there, some not knowing why, but they were hearing the truth!
Hours later, I saw tears, hugs, prayer and student’s beaming with the light that radiates when captivated by Jesus Christ! They have chosen to live differently.
This weekend I laughed, smiled and cried with best friends, sisters, brothers and mentors; dreaming about the future and reminiscing about the past. I am so beyond grateful for those who have poured into my life and have paved the way for my journey as I am no longer a student.
Thank you: DiscipleMakers and staff for giving so many the chance to hear and live in the truth during such a crucial period of life. A ministry that impacted and prepared me greatly. My friend and constant source of wisdom, love, patience and support: Becky. Chelsea, Taylor, Carolynne, Connie, Madi, Nate, Theresa, my family and My God!!